alright i haven't written in a LONG time. and i got to reading a lot of my posts and realized that i was either really pissed off or really sad so i did a lot of random babbling! well i do have a lot happening in my life right now that i would like to tell everyone about. My older sister Ashlie is here! her husband is in training and she is here or a month! i enjoy having the extra sisterly advice. i also recently made a big purchase! i bought a Honda CR85... its beautiful! I love it! =]
My family seems to be doing alright with the exception of dramatics. i have some 8th grade drama happening and i don't really appreciate it but what can you do? Part of it isn't my drama its my friends drama but i love them so what can you do? i just take life as it comes and try to make the best of it. i have enjoyed my church activities this year. girls camp was super fun and i was grateful for the extra time with the girls i love so much! i hope that i can continue my current pattern of daily scripture study and prayer when my busy school year starts! registration is on the 13th and 14th so its like tomorrow! i am dying to know my schedule!
so last night i had some events! My mom came into the computer room and asked me to move her car into the garage for her. what she didn't know was that i was a little distracted from other current events and probably shouldn't be behind the wheel. well i jumped in her car and started to turn it on, then i realized that i probably shouldn't talk on my phone while driving! so naturally i put my phone on speaker and tucked it in my shirt. i didn't realize that i forgot to turn the car on and put it into reverse. well i started rolling down the driveway. i flipped out a little when the brakes didn't work and started to scream. well luckily Ashlie had parked the little white pickup at the mail box and it stopped me before i rolled into my neighbors house. i drove into the drive way and got out to check the damage but there wasn't any... at first glance. i drove into the garage and got off the phone. i got out and my parents had heard the hit and come to check the damage. my assumption of no damage was wrong. there was a small dent on the bumper along with a couple scratches. my mom wasn't very pleased but i was not in trouble. so my state of mind went from upset to hysteria and i started to shake and everything went blurry. it reminded me of a panic attack and for all i know it was but i was so overwhelmed with emotion it was all i could do to lay down and cry. Ashlie asked me what happened and the words became real as i said that i had wreck the car. luckily she is my sister and can read my mind so she realized my melt down before it started. she jumped out of her chair and pulled me into her arms. my dad thought i was laughing and got mad but my sister quickly told him that he had mistaken a happy emotion for a very upset one. my dad didn't say much to me after that. i cried for only about a minute and shook for another hour or so. o by the way the truck had no damage... not even a scratch. but after i forgot about my car accident i remembered why i was upset in the first place. boy issues. i was so upset that it made me almost physically ill. i had the symptoms of a cold or the flu but i wasn't sick. Alix called me and asked if her and Gabby could stop by to pick up a book so i told them to come along but when they reached my house they realized that something was wrong. they asked and i broke down. i explained my boy issue and they felt sympathy and were very helpful. they sat with me until midnight and then texted me until they went to sleep at 2. they made me sleep because they said it would make my physical sickness go away and then i could deal with the emotional side of things. it worked i woke up in the morning feeling physically well and emotionally crushed. my family saw this quickly and took immediate action. Ashlie made me get ready around noon and come to work with her. i hadn't eaten so she practically forced me to eat half of a Goodies sandwich. JK. but Ashlie is taking care of me and refusing to let me be miserable. When Sara gets home from EFY i'm sure she will take her turn trying to make me feel better but i dont to feel better for the moment. i just need to be sad so i can deal. i love the effort they put in and it does make it temporarly better but as soon as i slow down i think about it and i get sad again. Ashlie asked me if it felt like someone was pushing on my chest where my heart was and it felt like i couldn't breathe. its a combination of that and a frog in my throat. it will pass soon i'm sure but for now im dealing!
Peace. Love. Cell Phones. Dr. Pepper. Sisters. Friends.
•LizzieKay•
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